Stupid People

You know something, I hate stupid people. I hate people who have nothing better to do with their time than to percive things... Which leads to gossip and rumors.. TO YOU I WANT TO SAY, GET A LIFE. LOOK AT YOURSELF, LOOK AT WHAT YOU CLAIM TO BE AND WHAT YOU ARE PERCEIVING YOURSELF TO BE IN MY EYES.. YOU HAVE NO RESPECT FROM ME. YOU MADE A PERFECT EXAMPLE OF YOUR OWN CRITISIMS THAT WERE THROWN ABOUT ME. GET THAT PLANK OUT OF YOUR EYES AND MAYBE YOU MIGHT SEE WHAT YOU'VE DONE... UGGHH.... I'M DONE....

Forgiveness

Today God i pray for your mercy to fall on me. I know i have fallen short God. Everyday i breath i want to taste your essence. I want to feel your mercy like water falling on me. God i know you have great plans for my life but right now i can't see past my inequitties. I have sinned, i have done wrong, but God please know that my heart is in your hands. The hands that shaped into the very being that i am today. Lord i know when you molded me, with your hands, you didn't plan for me to suffer as i suffer today with my sins. Take them God. Take all of me Lord... I want the walls to be torn and chains to be broken. I claim victory in your powerful name , JESUS CHRIST, my savior, my Abba, my Father, my all in all, my provider, my creator, and father my love.

Conformaity!

Life can be so hard at times and being a Christian doesn't make it easier to deal with life. But with prayer to our Lord, he strategically places things in our lives that will easen the pain. I think to conform to this world is to give in to whatever path that is shorter and easier to traverse then what Christ has called us in certin situations. I believe that being a Christian, God does test our character by stretching us spiritually and physically, wether its asking us to show Christ to the person we despise the most or to give financially at times when we're strecthed thin in our wallet. This show Christ our character and "conformaity", to his will and desires. It is so easy to make excuses to defer away from it all, but i think we should trust God and just do it.
Recently God has showed me i need to conform to his ways with my seperation from my wife. I believe it is so easy for me to play the "hurt" card, and conform to what this world may call "she deserves it attitude", and completely not show Christ in the situation. It is so hard, don't get me wrong because i am human and i am hurt and my first instincts are to react. I feel God continually reminds me that she is also Christs child and he love her very much and he is hurt by her actions as well and to leave the judgments in his hands. Forgive her because Christ forgave me, and to pray for her that someday she may realize her mistakes and asks God for forgivness. I am not more in God's favor than she. I say this because we are both still sinners and no sin is greater than the other in God's eyes. We will continue to sin until the day we pass from this world and are with God, than we will sin no more and God will have his judgement apon us.

Compassionate

I have been praying to God to reveal to me a new life and a new understanding of who i am through him. I strongly feel that God is telling me to be more compassionate about life, friends, work, attitude, etc.... As i sit back and examine myself, i strongly realize, compassion is not very apparent in my personality. So often i come of as a jerk because of my abrupt comments or thoughts that are spoken shouldn't be spoken, and that i am super competitive. God is telling me to take the time and listen to the person whom i am conversating with and reply with love and if there is nothing that can be said of love than say nothing at all. This maybe easy for some people but it is not easy for me because i speak my mind and sometimes that isn't always positive affirmation. I pray to God for strong convictions and a swift healing of the other persons heart. Does anyone have any suggestions on different methods to follow when interacting with other peoples so that i may show compassion..
God bless
गोद ब्लेस (this is hindi language this says " God bless")
शैशव जरीवाला (this says my name shaishav jariwala)

Long Night Sleep

Yesterday i came home from work around 445pm. By the time 530pm came around i was REALLY tired. I set my alaram on my cell phone for 730pm, i have classes at 8pm. well, the next thing i know i wake up to my alaram at 5am for work. So pretty much, i gota 11 & 1/2hrs. of sleep and it felt great. But i also missed my class... oh well..

Emptiness

Hello everyone,

I have recently decided to blog my emotions as a way of letting my heart talk. For all of you that know me, know my story of late. I have experiance a lot for being a 21yrs old man of God. I know serving God hasn't always been the easiest, but i never imagined it would be this difficult either. I love God with all my heart and soul and there is nothing in this world that will give me satisfaction like Jesus gives me. With that being said, i still yern for more of him. I often feel lonely and sad about life right now and i have quickly realized in those times i am pushing God behind the walls and not letting him see my pain.

Ephesians 2: 1-5 says " 1As for you, you were dead in your transgressions and sins, 2in which you used to live when you followed the ways of this world and of the ruler of the kingdom of the air, the spirit who is now at work in those who are disobedient. 3All of us also lived among them at one time, gratifying the cravings of our sinful nature and following its desires and thoughts. Like the rest, we were by nature objects of wrath. 4But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, 5made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions—it is by grace you have been saved.

After reading those verses, i realized that our humaness finds it easier to seek symphathy from others who love us and care for us. I am not saying this is wrong, it is good. But i think so often we don't allow God to hear those pains first from our voices. I believe this hurt him. i believe God tells me, that i am to have a heart like a child. Run to Jesus like a child runs to his mother and father for comfort when he or she is hurt. Than allow him to breath into our lives and because he knows our needs, He will provide that right person to give us that human touch of love.